As will
become painfully obvious to anyone who regularly reads my blog, I have
Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder. I tried to be as proactive as
possible with my disability and to find out as much as I could because
knowledge is power and I needed power over my disability. So I read all I could
to help me understand more and more about my disability what it’s strengths were
and what I needed to do to find ways to improve on my flaws because of it.
As a teenager I was asked by several psychiatrists and psychologists to write something to help explain what it was like for me having ADHD. To this I flat out refused for two reasons 1 I wasn’t going to be forced to do anything by these morons. 2 My writing to me is a very personal thing and although nothing is more personal than my disability I wasn’t willing to share those kinds of intimate thoughts with anyone. I guess what it boils down too was at the time I couldn’t really comprehend how to explain what I was like for me.
As a teenager I was asked by several psychiatrists and psychologists to write something to help explain what it was like for me having ADHD. To this I flat out refused for two reasons 1 I wasn’t going to be forced to do anything by these morons. 2 My writing to me is a very personal thing and although nothing is more personal than my disability I wasn’t willing to share those kinds of intimate thoughts with anyone. I guess what it boils down too was at the time I couldn’t really comprehend how to explain what I was like for me.
So a few
years ago I sat down and found the words to not only help me but to help other
people understand what it’s like living with this disorder. It was becoming so frustrating
for some of my friends to not understand and grasp the way my brain worked,
they knew my wiring was different and they knew it meant I was different but
they didn’t really understand the full spectrum of what my struggles were.
Honestly you can’t understand unless you have it, the old saying of walking a
mile in someone else’s shoes is very applicable to what anyone goes through
with a disability or disorder but I did the best I could and it’s what you’ll
read below.
People
Like Me
I have some issues with my memory and I can forget things really easily. It becomes frustrating when you can remember a minor detail then totally forget a conversation. I struggle to keep my mind focused and tend to drift off into my own little world. I don’t mean to do it but my brain is wired differently to yours.
I can get hyper-active and out of control and at some points it may seem like I’m from another planet but rest assured during these moments I’m always in control. I can become overwhelmed and struggle to cope my brain only makes room for one emotion anything else has to fight or wait its turn.
I may not understand the looks you give me and when we are out and about I may speak my mind and scream and shout. Please understand it’s not a deliberate thing that I do but there is no other reason except for this is who I am, so please don’t let these things upset you.
My hand writing is messy and hard to read and sometimes I make things look much harder than they seem. If you’re starting to think this is a mission? That’s a start to getting your head around my condition.
I’ve given up on trying to sit still it’s just not something I can do I don’t have worms and I’m not full of beans but I do have a lot of energy, I do the best I can to get rid of it all but the problem with being hyper-active is I just end up with more.
So you may not understand this you may not even care this really wasn’t written for you, it was written for people like me.
I have some issues with my memory and I can forget things really easily. It becomes frustrating when you can remember a minor detail then totally forget a conversation. I struggle to keep my mind focused and tend to drift off into my own little world. I don’t mean to do it but my brain is wired differently to yours.
I can get hyper-active and out of control and at some points it may seem like I’m from another planet but rest assured during these moments I’m always in control. I can become overwhelmed and struggle to cope my brain only makes room for one emotion anything else has to fight or wait its turn.
I may not understand the looks you give me and when we are out and about I may speak my mind and scream and shout. Please understand it’s not a deliberate thing that I do but there is no other reason except for this is who I am, so please don’t let these things upset you.
My hand writing is messy and hard to read and sometimes I make things look much harder than they seem. If you’re starting to think this is a mission? That’s a start to getting your head around my condition.
I’ve given up on trying to sit still it’s just not something I can do I don’t have worms and I’m not full of beans but I do have a lot of energy, I do the best I can to get rid of it all but the problem with being hyper-active is I just end up with more.
So you may not understand this you may not even care this really wasn’t written for you, it was written for people like me.
